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Hey people ! It's me again ! Back after 2 months of not blogging. Well, its very obvious on what this post is gonna talked about. YES !!! MA 19th birthday !! I just officially turned 19th 5 days ago. Yeah the last year being teen but well gonna enjoy it before i turn 20 next year :(

This year's celebration? It was YUMMYSOME!!!!! I totaled a 4 times celebration for this year's birthday. First was on National's Day which is the 31st August 2012.

Wow, i couldn't believe i actually took time off my assignment to do this post. No idea why there's a strong urge pushing me to actually have some 'sentimental' essay tonight or early in the morning of 12:35 a.m

Today is 4/7/2012

If you've been catching up with my blog (which is incredibly impossible as i never update for friggin long), you would notice there's been a whole long one year i've never posted anything at all. This blog who really USED to be my dailyreminder had actually dead? Not yet i guessed.

June 30 2011 onwards, i would say it had became a huge turning point for me whether its in the aspect of mentality, attitude, appearance or personality. The changes is so strong that i myself eventually felt it. It has both good and bad in those changes and i really do try to change the bad ones. But trust me, it is at utmost difficult to change yourself ESPECIALLY when you forced yourself to. I would say nature really take its course.

Having none of a single clue on how i used to be a very happy-go-lucky, positive and determined person that have actually changed to being a kinda emotional and take things seriously person. Besides, i tends to adapt a bad temper.

I experienced more than just being a regular college students in that July 1st all the way to i would say now. A college student for me is just being happy, enjoying with bunch of mates and sometimes scratching your head for assignments. However, things actually turns into kind of a lesson to me. I THINK.

Those who knows me, i actually YEAH having conflict with people. Argue-ing all the way through the year. I would say it sucks to me and to everyone around me for baring us. I've been too childish and see things in a critical way in the past. I really wanted to apologize sincerely to anyone that i had behave like that to. REALLY REALLY sincerely. I wouldn't say i've completely gotten away from that 'seeing things critically' problem. But i hope at least that improvement was there.

Besides that, i cherished everyone around me that supports me all the way through. Giving me advise even though several times of those advises are made. Still, the advises never stops. I'm truthfully glad for this.Well, i know saying doesn't proved anything but it is true that i feel everything that's given to me.

As times goes by, i tends to see things in a more neutral way now. However, i would say i kind of hated that 'neutral' thing going in me. I hope to have the old Jam, which is ultra cheerful and active. But i wouldn't hate for being who am i now. I knew that there are people who love and support me.

Throwing all these happening incidents aside, i don't know why the thing that bothers me the most is future. I don't know but, feelings are really important for me. I would hate to experience redeveloping feelings. I wish that all the feelings i have now will continue on. I know its hard, but i do pray for it.

Ending this post, i have actually more express but i just can't seemed to type out anything.

Its July again without noticing, 5 more months to another year. In an blink of eyes.

If i have a wish. I would want time to pass slower. Perhaps?

Alright peeps, i'm here today to promote something. teeheee

Aloha world ! Its been like half a year since i've ever blogged. This blog seems super duper dead and i apologize for that. But well, its not like this blog have tons of readers ! Haha :)

So, curious what i've been up to ? Well well, i've just started my college not too long ago in INTI College Subang branch. Peeps, feel free to meet me up if you study nearby there :D

So far college have been great for me. Get along well with my classmates. Doesn't have anyone specifically irritating or annoying hahahaha :P Went out with them today and too bad i have to leave half way to meet up with my other friend. When i'm out of sight, it seems that had planned something that i am really really looking forward for. HAHA!! Stay tuned at my blog if you want to know more :P

Not to forget, most of my gang in college love K-Pop! Whoahh!!! That's a yay for me since you know, am lovin' K-Pop like mad.

Other than that, since the times i've been MIA not. I've created a Twitter account. Do follow me up kay anyone ? :DD click jamjien

Hope i can update frequently on my baby in the future as it really helps me to have more idea in writing ....... essay ? or.....story ? or.......assignment ?

and.

Assignment is killing me like....crazy !!! The first week of college i've already been given one Individual Assignment and one Group Assignment. Crazy not !!! Feel damn stress by those bithcy assignment. Though i've not started any :P

Till here, more to come alright. Stay tuned ! :D

Hey, after sometime, i'm back again! Well, i left my last paper to go which is the Economic subject. Its so fast! Without realizing, its almost the end of SPM. I remember i keep complain about how SPM just started and it takes forever to end that damn examination and its almost over now.

Well, the end of SPM marks the end of my 10 years schooling life. The life that will never reverse nor i can ever go back forever. Honestly, i do feel sad about that since i've been schooling for the past 10 years( Standard 1 - Form 5). I can never sit in the class, gossip and chit chat with a bunch anymore. Well, i definitely can meet my friends. But not all my classmates for sure. Every meetings have to be planned, unlike school that is a MUST that makes us meet everyday.

For the past 10 years. I've experienced various of stuff in school. To be honest, i've started cheating for exam actually when i was Standard 1 already! Haha. And the sad thing is, i was caught! Primary school was fun as i was fairly young, doesn't have any problem to be think of. Just enjoy every moment that i have. Friends come and go in primary because we were young, we doesn't really understand what FRIENDSHIP meant to us and how friends can influence our life. Standard 6 is actually the time where i learn to cherish my friends. I remembered i cry like mad on the last day of school. Till now, i still says that Standard 6 was one of the best time in my school life. I miss everyone. How's everyone is doing now?

There comes secondary. Through the 5 years. I would say each form is great! I go to school with excitement, thinking what to gossip with my friends everyday haha! This is the stage where i learn alot alot of things. Those over 18 things especially haha! Don't think i'm that innocent, i actually know alot of it :p

This is the time where friends became a very important aspect of my life. I had half of my each day spent with them. I laugh and cry with them. I shared my happiness, my problems and my secrets with them. I learned that besides family, friends are equally important as they hugely draw out our life, either happy or sad, they paint our life. I remembered i cried of loneliness when i was alone at home as my parents rarely can be seen at home. Especially Sunday. I was mostly lonely on Sunday. But with friends, i would't feel that. I love you my friends.

At secondary, friends do not come and go anymore. They mantained. Because we already know what FRIENDSHIPS meant for us. We're not anymore the naive young kid we used to be. We're teenagers, soon and finally we're adults. We're 18 !

I know coming out from the 'school cage' will be definitely different from school. We don't wear uniforms, go to school as fixed and sit in the classroom anymore. We have to make our choice, our pathway and decide how our life should be paint. We don't have teachers and school to decide for us anymore. Most importantly, the choice you made is the best for you and never regret it.

I can already see myself with my bag walking around the college. Meeting new people, new faces, new personalities and alot more. I wish to be a TV Host someday. It may be hard, but i will try my best to achieve it. Other than that, i wish to be an event planner. Other than that, i already have time for my hobbies since things like tuitions will never exist anymore.

Things would not go as you wish for all the time. This is the real life or the life after school. We just have to face it bravely.

Lastly, i thanked every person that ever existed in my school life. Bad or good, both do taught me alot. Baddies taught me to be tough and never believe in people easily while goodies taught me to love and appreciate the people around me. Thank you all the teachers, either i hate you or i love you. Sorry lah if i offend ALOT of you. Hahaha

Friends. The joy and happiness that you guys gave me is too much. I have to say. I enjoyed my life! Hope that our friendship can last forever. We're friends forever. The love you all gave me. I appreciate to the max. We will never say goodbye.

Goodbye school. Goodbye Saujana. Goodbye 1 Usaha, 2 Usaha, 3 Setia, 4 Science Social 1 and 5 Jati. Everything happens in school definitely deserve to be remember.

Here i come! The college life!

This title of the song clearly represents my feeling towards everyone.

DBSK-Proud

Its totally random. I really really think i should blog more often to improve my brain twisting skill haha. I mean, blogging can really make me have idea quickly during essays.

What i'm up to? Well. SPM of course and tuition classes too. Oh ya, swimming too has become a regular routine for me. Atleast once or twice a week. Healthy isn't it? haha

OH YA!!! I too had changed my lausy G900 Sony Ericson phone to a X6 Nokia. I'm really satisfy with this phone. Loving IT :D

Well. End here first LOL!!